Thanks Peg, I am trying...so very hard. It is just the worst feeling in the world.
Yeah, the boys are 10 and 12. They are getting pizza tonight so I don't have to cook. Hopefully, they will just play video games!

I am so thankful for PC because I can say anything here. I feel so alone, even with my husband and son in the house. I can't say anything to anyone because I just know they will worry too much. I won't even let myself cry or punch my pillow because I don't want them to know.

I can't WAIT for T on Tuesday. A little over 48 hours away....yeah I'm counting the time.

I have the biggest lump in my throat...the anxiety is killing me. It's like it's tearing away at my insides. It hurts so badly. I just don't understand why "I" am Bipolar. Why me? *sigh*
Thank you so much for the hugs....I need them right now