Day has already started out hard. In a lot of pain this morning. So tense, have tons of things running in my head of things that need to be done and I feel like I don't have enough time to do everything that has to be done. Hate this cause my neck and shoulders tense up so much I can hardly move like today. Ever just want to have a break and not think about anything? Everything would be happy and nice, with roses and butterflies. Then I wake up and cry because reality is so bad I can't stand it. I'm just on a whine.