Thank you PufNStuf. That is how I feel, I "know" that I am Bipolar, I "know" the symptoms and I "know" that eventually it will pass, but emotionally, I have the hardest time. I just don't friggin' get it. I think what your doc said make a lot of sense...I just wish I could figure it out right now!

My husband ended up coming into the room and we talked a bit. I told him that I don't want to be around or talk to anyone. I just want to stay in my room until I feel "better". He kept reminding me that I won't feel this way forever. I know that, but I am having a hard time dealing with the now...today.

That is the only thing keeping me around, the fact that I know it is going to change. You are right, it always does. I took a shower today, I didn't yesterday. I ate a small peach because my husband said I can't just keep going with no food....it'll make everything worse. I am pretty freakin' low right now.... actually really low. I hate waiting out this feeling, it's like watching water turn to ice, it takes FOREVER.

I cannot WAIT until T on Tuesday. I wish I could see her twice. I have so much crap that it won't all fit in 50 minutes.

You helped a LOT and I really appreciate your personal experiences and the quote from your doc and the hugs.

I think coming here, hearing that I am not alone and that people really do care helps. I often forget that I am not alone, there are so many people like me.