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Rainbow, I’m in the minority here. I don't think it's strange to want to do or to actually do.
I've done it with one T long ago. I kept it under control--though wrried about it and felt guilty all the time--and did it surreptitiously enough when I did so that she'd never have known (and didn’t)--middle of the night, or work hours once or twice when she wouldn't have been there. I didn't linger or stop. The urge faded away, but I did it periodically over a couple of years after agonizing about it for a long time. That was pre-internet. I moved away for 3 years, came back, and saw her for 5 years of intense therapy. Never drove by upon returning, never even looked her up to find out where she lived--that was post-internet.
It doesn't mean you're screwed up. I've heard of many people doing that. I don't think a casual drive by is stalking, if it's not a pattern. Stopping and hanging around, trying to see her, or be seen by her, would be.
For as common as it is for people to look up their T's on-line--who doesn't do that to everyone these days?--and for how a simple, casual drive-by (once) is, I'm very surprised that you're T is worried. Unless there's more to your history with it that you told her but not us (have you done things to interfere with any of your T's lives? shown up at their door), I think she has a problem with being so worried.
It can easily get out of hand, but it can also happen, be relatively controlled, and then be something you get beyond feeling an urge to do as with me.
It's most important that you talk with her about your feelings and fears about it. Not doing at all even once would be ideal, but if the urge overtakes you, you're not doing something far out of the ordinary. If you do and it bothers her greatly (and it's the simple variety), that's a comment on her limits as a T.
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