((((Rainbow)))) You got some really good responses. I wish I had some words of wisdom, but when I feel that kind of obsession and a compulsion to act out, it feels so impossible not to do what my compulsion is telling me to do.

I like that thinking through (T might be really scared) your actions might help you to not act out. And what has been said about boundaries and there is a professional "distance" she is entitled to.

Its amazing that you are able to get so deep with this therapist. Maybe in a way obsessing about her (and driving by her house) gives some sort of "control" over the relationship. And the difficult process. I think I have felt that way when I obsess about a therapist.