Blue: thanks for your response. Yes, it does feel like a compulsion but amazingly, looking at the image took away the compulsion to "go there" in person. I don't know. Maybe it's just as bad; I crossed a boundary but at least I didn't get in my car and drive there. It's not so far, but definitely not in my neighborhood. I have to think about whether it's a way to have some control over the relationship. This is my pattern, so it's important to find out why I do it. Kt says it's her job to figure it out, so I'm going to ask her!

onlymedid: Thanks for sharing your experience. You don't sound creepy to me!