I am sure many people know what i am talking about. That feeling you get in the pit of your stomach. You feel sick but not ill, you can't concentrate you feel like something horrible is going to happen and like you are helpless. I feel that way right now and i don't now how to get out of it. Watching those you care for in pain, seeing loved ones fight, wishing you could take the pain from everyone else, willing to live with all of it if it meant they would never have to. I want nothing more than to be able to take the pain from those i care for. I feel like a failure when my sister says she wishes she "could be beautiful for just one day" when i know no matter how many times I tell her she is truly beautiful she will not believe me. I want nothing more then for her to be ok. I feel horrible when my 'little brother' is sick and in pain and i can't even give him a hug or hold his hand. When i see him and my friend going through things and see both of them hurt by it and wishing for some sort of miracle to fix it all. I wish i could make others realize that they are not ugly like they might think they are and that they can make it friends. I want my parents to be able to be truly happy and not have to worry over things, i wish that my father didn't blame himself for everything, how can he expect himself to have prevented himself from getting cancer. ...........I want to be able to do more than then i can or are even possible, and i guess that may be one of my downfalls. Thank You for listening, i guess expressing your feeling can make you feel a bit better