(((( Radien ))))
you may be my newly made friend, but im so sorry that this is happening to you

i know the same feeling (and have been feeling it almost nonstop for a few nights now) and i would never want anyone else to have it.
i cannot exactly help you with all those, but i offer my sympathys and hugs and love
i know that everything may be not good right now, but in time everything will eventually work out (maybe not always for the best). whatever happens, i hope that you can walk away stronger and happier. you deserve happiness (along with your suffering family and friends)
-bluegirl