Hey. It sounds like you still do not know what you are doing although I think you glossed over it. Using this situation to not deal with other issues you are not dealing with. I do not know what those are. You seem to allow events to happen in your life without taking a more proactive approach and making decisions on your own (i.e. Waiting to be replaced by someone new instead of deciding to end it). You are stronger than that. Maybe somewhere along the way you learned not to trust your decisions or that you only deserve bad men because nice ones are boring. I think you could do well to trust yourself. Keep posting.