Chaotic- I would do it. I think it wouldnt be easy, it might be triggering, but I would do it to see what came up for me or if it felt healing in any way. I am not a big massage person. I am not comfortable with a stranger touching me. But I think if I went in there knowing that I am doing something to help the physical healing of my body, it could be fine. I would struggle to stay present during the massage but probably learn a lot by being able to stay present.

I love yoga for this reason. Its just me and what *I* do with my body. At times my teacher re-positions me. At first I was not comfortable with it, but now I find that I welcome her touch because she is trying to help me. Knowing that id BIG for me.

Funny, I also have a gift certificate for a massage that I havent used. I thought Id get a facial instead....a little safer....