Hello everyone. I am new here. Glad I found this site. I think I have been battling depression for a very long time alone. I think it has more to do with people around me (family & friends plus other life stresses more than anything else). I'm at a point where I don't know if it is me or them or what should I do. I have a very small immediate family consisting of my older sister, my mom, and two younger adopted sisters. I do speak with my father & his son (my older half brother) but I lean on my mom & sis emotionally. But when I just want or need to talk they make me feel worse saying things like I'm too sensitive or I get upset over silly things or people have it worse than me. They are highly critical & criticize how I dress, my weight, & most of all how I parent my child which hurts more than anything. My mom thinks I don't spend enough time with my child but I work and attend school part time. I have every weekend I spend with her & we do have a lot of quality time together in general. I would talk to my friends but they seem to compete with me & feel insecure with themselves and subtly put me down. I find it so hard to speak up for myself because I don't want to seem too sensitive or hostile so I hold a lot in which I know isn't good. My sister says I can't take a joke but for so long I feel like people try to put me down. Now my childs father & I live together with our child & he hardly helps me. We don't communicate & I have to clean up, take care of our child, work, go to school, cook, pay bills etc. I am very tired. I tried going to the doctor but I feel like I need to talk to someone but I don't have the time. I'm am so tired all of the time and to have to leave out & get my child ready and drive somewhere every week in addition to my other responsibilitles doesn't seem worth it. I do realize that all is not bad in my life but I need change, I need to release. I need time for me and people who love & understand me. Thanks for reading.