The lows are horrible. More horrible if I lay down and succumb to them. I have to force myself up and it pisses me off but i feel better if i can get my mind on anything else but the being in that deep dark well that swallows me up. Remember and tell yourself "this too shall pass" it helps me. I still have days where i want sleep to take me away! My boyfriend will ask whats wrong and i tell him im so sad today he asks why and i tell him i can't tell him why, because usually i dont have a definate reason i just feel!!!!! then he allows me to go to bed. I love that he allows me to cope the only way i know how to, it is reassuring to know that he understands(to the best of his ability, as he is not bipolar, he does read and study about bipolar though) and allows me to let it pass. You will be fine, hold on you dont have long now!!!!