I feel so completely alone in the world. The thing is i know that's not even true, i have T. Just last week she said she's not going anywhere. I cant' hold onto that. it stays only a little while and then boom i'm back in this hell of feeling alone and unloved. I am working on a behavioral analysis so that i can bring it with me to T tomorrow. It is taking long because i need to keep taking breaks from all the crying. I don't know why or how i have fallen so far. I am hitting rock bottom, feeling hopeless. Skills seem to only be working for short spurts and then i am back in hell. i talked to a friend who also sees my T and now i feel even worse. I'm so jealous and worry that t likes her more, she will keep her and toss me. Oh brother, i'm in some serious emotion mind and can't escape! only good thing is that i haven't used any bad coping skills. just keep on trying and trying to regain control of my emotions. my best friend lives in another state. I wish someone live closer.