Thanks Sabrina.

I still miss him.

Saturday to Tuesday was bad. The day after he was PTS (Wednesday) was very bad. Thursday/Friday were decent. Saturday was okay... until that night. Sunday was crappy. Today is stressful for many reasons so it's probably going to be bad later with me sobbing and whatnot.

Friends have said I'm coping with the grief well, I wish I felt that way.

I miss him so much. My mother also refuses to allow me to get another rat... she won't let me get ANY other pets until I've got a "real job". Sad, I live by myself but my mother still controls my life.

I miss my baby boy. My oldest rat Miles misses his buddy of almost two years. My youngest rat has been spending more time with his oldest brother, but it's so hard to watch them both look/act so depressed.