Thank you all for your replies. I guess it all boils down to respect. I do not feel respected in the slightest and in turn, I am very irritable with him which probably doesn't feel like respect to him either.

In response to your question Perna, I stay because I love him and I know what kind of man he was. I would love to have that back because it was then when I was truly happy. I'm a very hard-headed person, but I'm losing the energy to tell him how I feel every 2 weeks and get into it with him.

Mocha, tried initiating it. There was about a 6 month time period a couple of years ago where I was the only one who initiated it and I was being rejected almost every time. My drive and body just gave up. Who wants to be continually rejected by the person who is supposed to be head-over-heels in love with you?