((((((Charlotte))))))

First of all, you haven't led us on, so don't give that another thought. You don't owe us any apologies, Charlotte. I understand your reluctance to divulge your feelings to anyone in person, because I have the same problem. I know that panicky feeling that you mentioned, because I have always kept my emotions (negative ones) closely guarded. It just seemed wrong, because of my upbringing, to divulge any of them.

But you would be surprised how many times guidance counselors at high schools have heard stories similar to yours. I feel confident that the guidance counselor will take your feelings very seriously----that's part of her job. Although keeping a journal is a good idea, I do hope that you will go to see your guidance counselor. And whatever you decide, please know that we will support you here and will not judge you.