thanks guys. i just don't know if telling her what's in my heart is going to help or hurt me worse. She could very well tell terminate me early and not see me at all anymore if she thinks im too dependent on her. what happened is my littler parts are screaming with fear and i need reaasurance that she is not going anywhere. she said that a few weeks ago, but she also said last year that we would have to end therapy at the end of this yr. i am so scared of making things worrse. she will tell me to talk to my little one and calm he, tell her i am here for her. Who am i anyway? who knows? i have gone apparently