It's easy to get hurt online and easy to hurt others. Collectively - on these forums - we are not an easy bunch to always like or understand. Our thoughts and words can become distorted. We can write impulsively and with disregard. I'm sorry you've been hurt; likewise, I'm sorry for anyone who may have been hurt by you.
I'm new here. So I don't know how it was you were burned - if it was here? on the forum? or in chat? (nor do I want to know). However, I do hope you find the healing, encouragement and support you're seeking. I hope you are willing and able to provide the same when fellow forum posters ask as well.
At any rate, you are visible, present and accounted for. I know you are here and scared to ask for support. You do deserve a response to your request. You were brave to ask for support despite your fear.
Below are some smileys I picked with you in mind (they all kinda look like they are dancing...sort of) I'm guessing you have some fondness for dancing since your screen name is trinitydancer... unless you were referencing Dancer the reindeer...(in which case I added the viking smiley...closest I could find to antlers)