SD,

So sorry to hear you are feeling so down. I can relate... depression can feel like dragging something very heavy. Sending my deepest good wishes your way. I'm glad you are able to see your T even thought she is going out of town. I have found it very hard when T is away. I act like it's nothing but it takes it's toll. The only thing that has been helping me is going to therapy 3x per week. I just feel like I have endless anger and sadness left over from age 1 to mid 30's that I never dealt with. I'm hoping it won't take forever. Has more therapy ever been helpful? Also, as Theo and Skully have mentioned, changing meds might help? One other thing, that new treatment? TMS. I have heard it can be very helpul... though the insurance thing is a pain right now as it is so new. I know someone who has been helped by it, though.