((((( Beyond_blue )))))

So much going on for you. Here I am, present for you and reading. My alters used to and still do sometimes get pretty wrought-up before a therapy session, especially at first, well first 3 years or so. There is much mystery around what you are saying and as such does need to be given time to unravel as does any mystery situation.

Denial of events and programed to think better of people than what they are has been a block here too. Questions arise about all kinds of scenarios. Answers are few in the beginning but given time they do become really clear. Depending how long it has been shoved down by others and then by yourself/myself and the severity of the horrows is how long it will take. As the process goes, though and there is more internal connection amongst the parts, I see a certain calmness prevails. Not a calm of denial but a kind of knowing peace. Did I say peace, well, yes, kind of. Taking one step and then another, addressing each event, one alter, one at a time...yes sometimes even spending longer on some than others. I write to myself too Beyond_blue. There is no one more informed about you than you.

Today we have the part tell us something we would rather not know. We have learned that putting some of those very extreme things into a thick walled metal safe and dropping them to the bottom of the ocean till they can be addressed is best. We no longer want to put the harm on the little ones but find ways to lay aside the intensity. When there is peace in our valley we try to deal with those extremes. Becoming stabilized is so important. To be able to manage it at sessions after we become stabilized. Grounding becomes paramount. Calming thoughts and visuals. Soothing activities that the body thanks us for. Rest as much as I can. Basically a quiet time at home, a safe place. This is a daily pursuit when things are more calm in order to allow me to face those issues that are more traumatizing when they come up. In essence to see myself/ves as friends not those that harmed me.

Safety to you and even more calm in the days to come.