BELIEVE ME, YOU DO NOT SOUND STRANGE!!!
Now that you mention it,weekends are really bad for me...
If "bf" doesn't show up...I think it's become a major trigger and I absolutely HATE admitting it... I feel so dependent and it's horrible, because I think of myself as independent (obvious self-loath issue topic that 1)...anyway, let me attempt to stick to the topic:

If I'm alone over the weekend, I end up feeling inexplicably sad, abandoned and pathetic. I have like 1 friend beside my "bf", and she has a bf...which means I dnt see her weekends...

PS used "bf" as he's more my fwb LOL conventional relationships are too draining for me, so at age 25, I've given up on "happily ever after" LOL I admit, it gets lonely sometimes, but atleast that's 1 area where there is no self-pity or self-loathing. I know ME pretty well, and ME can't do WE... Does that make sense?

Anyway, my silly rambling is irritating me, so my apologies ( 1 of those days)

I relate, and I have specific times too... Tx for asking that Q, I'm glad I could finally be honest about it,I think I was ignoring my "pattern" for obvious reasons

XOXO