Thanks guys,

I am really peeved though as I thought I would of got somewhere but I feel I am back at the start when it was the unknown.

Feeling pretty bad though. Was crying last night and today at work(thankfully I was hiding out in 1 of my guys houses when he went to day services) Just feeling really rotten now that it was a waste of time. Feel like it was just another denial stage that has made it more real- I am screwed up as no-one knows what/who I am

Awe glad to hear that Theave will PM you later I did PM but I deleted it by accident argh!!!!