Rainbow- I am so impressed by your posts. I know you have said that it is an issue making decisions (I also have this huge issue and we have this in common) but look at the very mature and articulate decisions you have made with this thread. You posted stating how you feel, that you can speak for yourself, how you are dealing with the attachment/compulsion thing regardless of anyone else's take on it and you have such clarity as to how you want to heal. These are all big decisions. And how to word it in this particular thread with how the conversation is going in a very mature and personal way. I see you very much staying with your feelings.

I dont see you dependent on other people's point of view in order to state your own. For me, I might be too afraid of being abandoned to do that. I might or I might not. But I am so impressed with how you are being yourself, not "dependent" or acting like you cannot be in charge/in control. I SO admire the strength of character and honesty you have shown in this thread. I am learning from you, my dear friend. You are my hero!

I will post a thread about it (I think) but I was talking in therapy this morning a bit about this thread and what it brought up for me and my issues. My T (ftt) agreed that it is common for clients to do the things you have done and the things I did with desk-t (we focused on that) and it, of course, has to do with other issues. Neither you or I did anything wrong and your T can deal with her feelings in the way she needs to.

I just wanted to post to give you big hug and tell you that I see SO MUCH healing and inner strength in you from this thread and how you have handled it. I see you moving forward with giant steps