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It sounds like you have become very detached from your own feelings and this can happen for many reasons. A child that was not allowed to be happy, had to suppress tears, became frightened by their own feelings because it 'felt' dangerous. Actually anxiety can mask all other feelings.

The fact that you are aware that you have somehow tucked your feelings away (this can also happen for self preservation) means you can gradually 'start' to feel. Allow yourself to do something you enjoy and note what feelings you have. Everyone feels things slightly differently so writing down what YOU actually feel at the time can be helpful. Also doing this with a therapist can be very beneficial but in the meantime you could start by writing a diary. The diary is for your viewing only (unless you wish to share with your therapist) where you can write down exactly what you feel and how it felt to you.

You might find at first that fear and anger over ride other feelings but gradually other feelings will come through.

Let me know how you get on.