Hi and thanks guys

I was referred to the recovery team as they deemed me resistent to normal types of therapy.... cbt, counselling etc

The recovery team are there for the long term and I will receive home visits from them to ensure I'm coping with my BP and there to recognise if an episode is coming on... or I have entered one. It's long term support that I could have done with yrs ago, however, they're there for me now so this makes me happy.

I have not come of meds completely.... they are just weaning me off fluoxetine and have put me on Seroquel XL. 300mg a day is said to keep you in remission and the dosage can be altered if an episode comes on. They tell me this drug was only licensed last month (I'm from the UK) to be taken during "normal" phase as well as depressed and manic. So... fingers crossed!

I feel pretty angry at times that it took them 12 yrs of telling me I had dpression to actually listening to me and diagnosing me properly. I'm now 29 and for yrs they have fobbed me off with different anti depressants that never truly worked for me. I just wish they had diagnosed it sooner (diagnose october 2009) and maybe I wouldnt have done half the crazy things I have done. Its the manic episodes that have really caused me problems in my life and have got me into alot of trouble and caused ppl I love alot of pain and frustration. I never thought to tell them about these manic episodes as I never thought of myself as "manic" and just thought I was really happy. If I had been questioned then maybe, just maybe it would have been recognised sooner. It was only that a doctor last october questioned me about my mum's bp and asked more exstnsive questions that concerns were ever raised. I never knew bp could run in the family and never joined the dots, as like I said, never saw a problem with what I'd do during manice episodes. When I got depressed and felt bad for things I'd done, I'd shrug the doubts away about my behaviour being questionable and put it down to me being down about myself. Ok now I am going on. Sorry... lol it obvioulsy bothers me more than I thought.

Anyway where was I? lol yes so not off meds completely.... just swapping lol.

And yes I agree with the anxiety thing being a part of Bp... it seems, from what I hear, alot of ppl with bp also suffer from anixety problems. I have also been diagnosed with GAD.

Ok before I rant any further I will go lol