I'm NOT answering anyone in particular, just voicing MY OWN opinion:

Because of the inability to practice any kind of resolution on the board, if this thread gets locked, we will all again have to swallow our feelings and not resolve a thing, yet again!

As for me, I completely understand why Susan totally deleted herself and her life here. What she gave was from her HEART, something that this site so painfully lacks. Not from the membership but from some moderators on up to the administrator/owner of the site. Some few years back, I was also co-administrator of a site and for reasons that I won't mention, I decided to leave and yes, I "picked up all of my toys and went home." I felt like I had been taken advantage of, had been screwed over by the other administrator and why should I leave all the information and love I had shared?? It wasn't appreciated by my partner nor some of the more active of the members that were taking the information I had given and trying to start their own websites! HELL NO! I had my heart, blood, sweat and tears in those posts! They were MINE! They were ME, ME, ME!! No one was going to use ME anymore than they were going to use my WORDS. I don't blame Susan one little bit!!! BUT... it does HURT LIKE HELL!! When she made her dicision, it was because she HAD TO TAKE A STAND. For her, there WAS NO choice. When she left she tore the very HEART out of this site. You bet it hurts!! Doesn't any one of you stopped to think how much PAIN SHE IS IN??? I seriously doubt it!

I cry for Susan, not for myself...