Lately i have been feeling sort of blue and irritated and just want to make myself feel better. its not the sort of blue where im down all the time and dont want to get out of bed but still the odd cry here and there. but now i just want to spend and spend to make things the way i want them to be to be easier its not on frivolous things its things that do increase quality of life but i am so broke from dr appt and ive cancelled so many and therapy sessions ive also cancelled just to save. ive been ill on top if my bipolar and ive had those bills coming inn too. it never ends i had a plan to get out of debt. it was a three year plan its turnting into a five year plan how do you stop spending when you keep thinking its necessary.