Yeah I don't know what am even supposed to say anymore. i have a pdoc and he says there isn't much he can do so he sent me to the sleep specialist. So that should solve the problem right. They found that have sleep apnea and so I don't even know what am saying anymore.

I read the article you linked above and it's kinda scary. I mean saying people who are sleep deprived are more likely to die from it because of health problems. Well, am developing my share of them. That's the reason am going to see the doc. on Thursday. So who knows, and right now I don't care. I know sounds like a horrible attitude and that's fine if you think that. i don't know what to say anymore. I mean am I supposed to take a bottle of pills to get 4 hours of sleep or more? I don't remember the last time I got that much sleep in one night. But have gotten to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. The depression has returned and I know in my head or whereever that it's because am so flipping tired, but it's there. Then the thoughts get bad and then so on and so on.

Who knows anymore. If this is all in my head then I want it out. I was able to function at a very pretty "normal" level for many weeks at first, and now I can barley get out of bed. I want to cancel all my appointments and just curl up in a ball and cry. But the tears won't come and I won't let them. Right now, I don't even know what to do, i so don't want tonight to come, i don't want bedtime to come. I can fall asleep but can't stay that way.

Oh well as I always say. Guess something has to always be wrong in my life lately. Sorry know that was stupid to say, just saying what's in my head. And probably feeling pretty sorry for myself right now.

Has anyone ever heard of being given a shot or something along those lines to put you to sleep for a while? I am just getting pretty desperate and I know a doc. around here would never do that, just wondering if anyone has ever heard of that?

Thanks,
Jen