i don't love him, but i am emotionally involved with him. i've never had sex for sex's sake. i've always had to have some sort of friendship first.
i will be sad when it's over. i have a lot of fun, and laugh a lot, which doesn't happen too often at home.
i really am very confused. my marriage as it is, is comfortable but boring. my husbands loves me very much. i love him as a friend, nothing more. i don't want to hurt him. i don't want to be with this fwb 24/7, but i would spend time with him every day if i could.
how i got here i couldn't tell you. how i'm going to resolve it is something else i don't know.
financially, we have lost everything but the house, so i can't be taken advantage of there. like you, the last thing i want is to be used. this affair has been going on for a year now, so i don't think he's using me, although i knew from the beginning it wasn't to be a permanent thing.
i really don't know what i'm doing.