I took a temaz again last night because I had a final this morning, but still couldn't get to sleep until 1am. So I got 8 hours, but I don't feel as tired as I did after the 10 hour night. I have to work tomorrow, so I'm debating about whether to take another temaz tonight, but I wish I could do it on my own. It's hard to even with a pill. Why does taking meds make me feel guilty or weak? I just want to be rid of them all. Sometimes I hate my brain chemistry. Other times I appreciate its creativity. I wonder if I could be fully balanced and still produce interesting art and writings.