Today is my husbands birthday and I should be happy and able to allow him freedom to spend his day as he wishes, but my mind is racing and Im upset and I keep getting great ideas to improve his birthday that turn into a fight. It's like I am watching myself start fights and ruin his birthday but cant stop it and just enjoy the day. But in my mind I have already planned the day out and its not going the way I want it too. Today I have yelled, cried, laughed, and threaten to leave all within a hour