I didn't go on the road trip with them yesterday and things were better today.

I am still staying out here another month til I go back in July to see Dr. Baker. I am a little disappointed I am not going home but it was my decision to not go home. I had the option but due to my state of mind lately (I have shrunk back into a depressed mode) it is better that I am out here among people. That way they can help monitor my food intake and such. They can also help me with my cravings. Mom knows when I craving a cigarette because I go get a blowpop out of my stash and start sucking on it.

I think mom and I are going to have to have a talk though because there are things that are driving both of us nuts about each other that we have to compromise on or we are going to go crazy or just blow up eventually.

Jan