I couldn't make it into work today. I have been up since 2am. My NP never called me back yesterday, even though I left a message that I needed help. I went to T and she was super concerned about me. I promised her I would be safe.
I asked her for some recommendations of new psychiatrists that I am going to try to call today. I have to call my insurance to find out what will be covered, who is covered, etc.
UGH! I feel totally overwhelmed on top of feeling the lowest low I have felt in a long time.
I hope I don't lose my job, but at the same time....I just don't care.