All my adult life I have been addicted2something. 1st it was LSD, then alcohol, painkillers&benzos, cocaine, more painkillers&benzos, then it was meth, and finally heroin. Heroin was my best friend. I had nobody else who I could depend on except heroin. It was there when I was sad2lift me up&when I was happy there it was waiting in the wings4me2come back. Everyday, $200to$500down the drain on it. Never thought I needed help. Why? I wasn't getting sick or anything. Then one day I decided2stop. The withdrawals were AWFUL. I wanted2die, but instead, I got more heroin. Decided id just stay high all the time so thered be no withdrawals. Then I went2reno with fam. Actually snuck drugs on a plane so I could be high on vacation, too. But I ran out&this time the withdrawals were even worse. Got airlifted2the hospital. But I was so embarassed cuz my grandma was there&I didn't want her2b disappointed in me. So I said I didn't know what was wrong. They drug tested me&tried2get me2say something but I wouldnt&cuz I was an adult they couldn't tell my family. I was sick for6days, never got any better. Had2make an emergency flight home2hookup. But this time we were bringin grandma home2live with us&she knew something wasn't right, so I confessed. Told her the heroin was ruining my life.
A friend told me bout a clinic&I'm eternally grateful4that. I was afraid of the stigma associated with methadone but if I hadn't gone2get therapy I probably would've died. I cebrated my 4years clean date a few days ago&I decided2start tapering off the methadone, under the watch of the clinic md. Honestly, methadone saved my life. Its not as horrible as ppl make it out2b. Its a safe healthy way2get off opiates by filling the opiate receptors in the brain so u can't go use.. and if u did you'd have2do so much you'd most likely od.
If anybody has??s or wants2talk bout it, write back. I'm starting my eductaion as an addiction specialist&I love2help others or just be a good ear or shoulder4them.