Hi
I came to this country 8 years ago and married my wonderful soon to be ex husband.
We have a 3 year old daughter and he did everything for me and I messed it up.
I have attention problems and can't focus on what he say's or means. I researched bipolar and ADHD but not sure if I have any of those.
I am organized, have no troubles in doing my chores, watching the kid, be always on time, know every bill to pay and birthday in my head, no need to write it down and my boss who is a psycologist thinks i am smart and nothing is wrong with me but there is.
I get blackouts and racing thoughts, I can't controll what I say and focus on conversations also forget things what happen in the past.
My husband tried a lot but he can't fix it, I blame him for things he didn't do and get angry a lot around him.
Yesterday he came home and talked to me, told me he never did so much for a women than for me and I just felt very ashamend.
He has the divorce paper but didn't serve me yet. I know he want it to work and also me because nobody will care for me like he does.
I need help ASAP but don't know where to start. My Doctor told me everybody has that once in a while, he don't get it. I have only medical and it is limited for me to go and pick somebody else and I have not the money to pay out of my pocket.
Any advise will help, please email me
Thanks for reading my post
God bless
Manuela