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Originally Posted by hesterprynne
i don't want to be alone either. i don't mind living alone, but i need a man in my life. a boyfriend if you will. really, i am such a selfish, self serving person it sickens me when i think about it.
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These lines strike me. Particularly familiar to me actually.
Have you always hated yourself, or is this a recent thought that you've begun to have?
It sounds as though you are truly avoiding being alone. Alone where the thoughts, memories, and emotions will become unavoidable for you. This thought seems to bring up a lot of fear in you. You would rather deal with any other hell. Just NOT being alone.
Is this an accurate assumption?