to take meds again. considering i only ever gave the 2 i have tried about a month each, this is really big for me (yes i'm a wuss ) but prozac made me sick and celexa made me fat, so i gave up on each pretty fast.

after a bit of a meltdown at work where my manager took me to lunch and asked what was going on (i just said a bit of stress and stuff) i went to the doctor and got Aropax (paxil to you). but i haven't started taking it till like ... today ... and that was over two months ago. the reason i decided to start was cos i had a couple of really irrational crying spells over the weekend in front of a friend and it was just dumb and embarrassing.

i am REALLY scared of what this drug will do and really annoyed that i am not able to get my mind around things and just get OVER it and be in control of my emotions. there is nothing causing this - great job, great friends, family, and flatmates.

i dont know if this was the right decision, the doctor said i would have to take the med for at least a year as i have had 'depression' before. Isn't this too long?? i thought it would be three or four months.

if anyone can give me some advice or share their experiences i would be REALLY grateful. i don't like this one bit ...