I am sorry youre feeling a bit afraid to take the meds...I think that is common. I do not take it but know 2 people who do and they took it for years and liked it....I think it takes a month or so to get the effects of the med and blow off any side effects you may or may not have. Some people feel tired others get like anxiety and have to have a add on med. I think if you search Paxil while waiting on someone with experience to come on you may find some useful posts. There is a search at the top of the site Good luck