Not as in forgeting to send important letters and forgetting to pay my bills irresponsible (because that's just me and I do it way too often).

I want to book a ticket and go to some place (right now Sarajevo is in my mind) without really thinking about it, in a spur of a moment. I am sure I would enjoy it, but my responsible part of my personality always takes over. I know I cannot really afford to spend a lot and I have my responsibilities here... But I just want to do what I want to do, stop represing myself, stop putting on a game face.