Oh thank you Typo.

you are so kind(again, for the PM offer- thank you, you just might see one from me some time!)

ugh.... sorry you had "reactions" to certain words/phrases too.

It's so so difficult, it's partly the cause of keeping me from having any friends, keeping me from holding jobs long and is now affecting my physical health.... there's only so much hypervigilence the body can handle-- such physical tenseness.

I admire you for getting yourself to cope with it and calm the trigger, that is so very awesome and great work you've done!!Wow! it's not easy at all, I can sure appreciate that.

*sigh*....... it does help some to think that the pronoun "she" is used instead of "he", in affection and/or attachment. Yes, thank you.

However it's only 10 seconds and the warning kicks in that this is just a way to pull the wool over the naive's eyes. The culture wants us to accept that females are to be objects, owned and controlled, sets up for abuse to happen more easily.....
then I get upset with myself for not being able to let this go! "let it go --fins! argh.... what is wrong with you!"

ick-- get a "sick in the stomach" feeling......

when/how can I ever get beyond this.....

fins