i know people are trying to help... but for some reason all i read are accusations...

i cannot afford benefits that dont have massive co-pays... my copay for a doctors visit is over 70$ and i am the only income in my family... i can pay for the doctor, or my daughter can eat and have clean clothes.

that is the choice i have to make.

i make too much to receive assistance but not enough to afford paying for anything that will actually help me.

as for the VA i have no idea how to even begin. like i said i never finished basic becuase i attempted to kill my self 2 times while there. oince while left alont another when the sgt said somthing along the lines of 'if you want to kill yourself just do it'

i have not clue one how to get help and i cant seem to make myself do it... i dont know how. even posting here i want to erase everything i written and pretend like it didnt happen.

i just dont know what to do.