I am so tired of this life i live. I fight with my addiction . I feel I dont have nobody. I always have everybody back. I seldom say no . My relationship with my kids and my husband is strained. I wish I could run away. my husband thinks you have to have a reason to be depressed. I say white he says black. I was laid off last year june . I think because I am not using my brains I applied for a state job . they said due to my iron being so low I couldnt finished the process until I increased . I wish I could sleep my life away because you you dont think when your sleep . I am getting insecure . I wish I could just shake it off.