Thanks, everyone for your thoughts. Turquoise Sea-- yes, I am seeing a therapist and psychiatrist... I've seen them both this week.

I had a reasonably good camping trip... had some fun with my friends, and also had waves of feeling absolutely awful. My second interview went well, and I feel like I have a decent chance of getting this job that I want. I've gotten to spend quite a bit of time working in my vegetable garden the last few days, which I enjoy. But, I'm still feeling really low right now. My therapist told me yesterday that I had a "bad attitude toward my depression." I think what he meant is that hating the depression doesn't help, but gets me hooked further into it... resenting being depressed makes me more depressed. I've done some work with mindfulness practice in the past, which has been really helpful, but I'm having a really hard time using those skills this time around. I feel like, at this moment, I don't know how not to hate having this experience. I'd appreciate hearing any thoughts people have about this.
Garden Gal