(((((granite)))))
Ouch. I know how much that hurts. That abandonment and rejection being triggered, it hurts. A lot.

I'm so sorry she cancelled you, after a whole month of waiting. Did she give you a reason? I encourage you to call her back and tell her how you feel, or send her an email. It's ok to be hurt & feel rejected by her, and it's ok to tell her that. Maybe she can fit you in some other time next week so you could talk about this, if you ask her.

I'm just so sorry.