romanjames, those statements from your family are awful. If I were you (and I did this for other reasons to do with family), I would create really strong boundaries about how much time and influence they have in your life - even decide whether or not you even want ceratin family members in your life at all. You have a life threatening illness as it is, and to be judged like that just isn't on. I am a sober alcoholic as well as a Beeper and back in my drinking days (11 years sober now), my behaviour with men was out of control - especially when I drank to blackout, which was the way I drank for 18 years. So you're not alone and it's not a moral issue as your family are saying, it is due to ILLNESS.