What do you feel you need *the extra kick* for? Are you feeling pain when you take the pills or are you taking them for another reason? When you reach for that bottle, what is the reason behind it?

My mother has a great deal of pain, all kinds of issues. I won't get into detail, but she started out with simple things. Her doctor prescribed things for her headaches, but then her back got worse, she had a heart attack, and all of her pain was worse after that. The pills she had became her outlet for everything. She began taking them innocently enough, but ended up taking them for more.

I'm not sure how you react to pills, but she became even more angry. I had to grow up with this, and this is what has messed me up so bad. My mom was many different people while I grew up and she has destroyed her marriage with my father. They are still together, but they have the worse relationship. I've seen her try to kill herself, I've seen her O.D., to be saved at the hospital. I've seen her go through rehab multiple times, and it didn't work.

Please, don't go this way. Get help before it is too late! It hurts me to even think of you and all the other people out there who this could happen to. It's happened to plenty of others as well.