Oh (((((((((((((((zooey))))))))))))))

It is SUCH hard work to get through so many big feelings. I know it feels like they will engulf you and that you'll feel like this forever, but you will survive them, and they WILL change. Just like a clown fish can survive the current moving around her.

It's scary to tell....and the period between telling and seeing T the next time after telling a big thing feels SO hard to me. I need to see him, and feel his energy, to really believe that everything is okay. Sometimes calling helps. Would calling T help you?

Something T and I worked on was "floating". Sometimes I would swim so frantically that I'd start to drown. I was so scared of my feelings that I would exhaust myself and make everything harder by moving from one thing to the next to the next to the next. Sometimes if I could just let myself slow down a little bit, I would feel a little bit calmer inside. I would focus on the fact that I am HERE, and it is NOW. I would ground myself in the present by focusing on the sounds and the textures around me. I would try to slow down my breathing and focus on my breath.

Know that you are loved and that you absolutely will make it through this. Breathe