(((((treehouse)))))
I'm going to go sit outside on my balcony for a little bit and see what I can notice, what I can see and hear and feel while i'm out there.

I had such a great talk w/my T last night when I called her, I'm kind of afraid to call again because I want to hold onto the good feeling I have and sometimes it's not so good. You know? Sometimes she's not there or she's busy while talking to me or I can't say what I'm trying to say and it doesn't always feel as good and healing as it did last night.

But yes. I want to call her. I want to make sure she doesn't think I'm gross or disgusting for what I told her. I want to ask her if I really told her that. Somebody tell me, is that crazy? To ask her if I really told her that? Because I know I did, and yet I can't believe I did.

ok, going to go just BE for a little bit...