Thank-you for replying to this and being concerned about me. We did get a car, and I like that it gets really good gas mileage. Maybe if I can get time off work I'll be able to go and see T more often. I wanted something like this for commuting to school too.

People keep telling me to take care of myself and things like that though, and that one seems to be beyond me. I have this continuous drive to run myself into the ground, and I don't know if I can stop, even after a lecture from T saying that it isn't okay with her for me to keep getting hurt, letting people hurt me, etc. Something is telling me that I should just stop telling her about it when I do.

The last couple of weeks were intense, and I've been feeling a little better now, so I do hope I can start going forward again now, or at least stop going backwards.