HereI am BP, I very much feel the same way. As I am improving due to better meds mix and excellent therapy, I have some short periods of feeling almost normal - then I immediately think I should be working and not on the Disability Support Pension (Australia). But this is ridiculous - I tried to go back to work last year and failed dismally and it was very traumatic - and this was in a career which I am well educated for and which I woked at a high level for 14 years. And I was re-entering at a much lower level and part time and couldn't even do that.